Anonymous asked: I saw that you had an eating disorder last year, and I was just wondering if you ever have "relapse days"?

YES. Actually, I had one as recently as last week. The thing about eating disorders is that while a large portion of it has to do with the will to be thin, another big part of it is control. On rough days when I feel like I’ve lost control of other circumstances in my life or when I’ve just disappointed myself, my first instinct is typically to skip a meal; my mind literally jumps right to “well you’ve also gotten fat.”

What’s important to remember is that there are other things you can control. It’s important to remember that while there are so many things you simply have no control over, there are also a lot of things you do have control over, and your personal health is a big one. 

Another thing that really helps me on those days is how my health effects those who love me. Not only has my past with disorder caused my family and friends to constantly worry about me, but it has also brought me to the realization that when I don’t eat, it really stresses them out. I don’t want to do that to the people who have been there for me through this whole thing. 

I’m really lucky to be where I am. I think it’s important to look at all the good in your life. I really hope this helps and if you’d like to come off anon (or if anyone else needs an outlet), I’d be glad to discuss this privately as well.